It is exactly one month today and the weeks before that was the darkest, saddest and most sorrowful period of my life. I never imagined that the circumstances of those fretful, flustered and worrisome weeks could be felt and experienced by a human being. I was helpless, unhappy and perturbed. Exactly one month today was when my beautiful, charming and loving mother passed away.
This is the reason that I have suspended my posting on this blog. It is in fact taking me a lot of guts and audacity right now in trying to write and finish this post. There was even a period in the past weeks that I have decided to end and cease posting writeups on this blog (named after my mom’s endearing nickname, Nengkoy). But my mother for sure would not want that.
I decided to resume writing because I know I’ve got lots of beautiful stories to tell especially tales and snippets on how lovely and delightful a human being my mother was. I know that my simple quiet life will never be the same now that my mom is gone. But I will try my very best to adapt and get by in this new life’s setup.
I know that my mom is watching and got the best view up there in heaven. And I am pretty sure that she is smiling now that I have resumed my silly writing.