Last Christmas, like any other Christmases in the past, I woke up late. I have always considered Christmas Day as my laziest day of the year. If there would be a day that I would give myself as a gift, it would obviously be the Christmas Day. It is the day when I would spend inside my bedroom all day – relaxing, slackening and lazy-ing (if the latter is a word).
Part of my respite was to just watch YouTube videos all day and peek at what my social media friends have been posting. Surprisingly, the first YouTube video that I watched last Christmas made me sob and whimper.
2021 is the first Christmas without Nengkoy, my mom. That is why my family’s Christmas Eve dinner was totally different for the first time. Absent was the star of our traditional Noche Buena. Though the Christmas food was really good, the Nengkoy-flavor was not there which I guess I would have to get used to in the next Christmases to come.
The song is so moving, it made me miss my mother this Christmas. And though my mom will never be forgotten – she’s part and will always be part of my daily prayer – I guess I need to simply just get used to this kind of a Christmas set-up.